I'm So Lost

I know I made mistakes, a lot of things I regret
They don't know how it feels, all they see is the fame
They try to dirty your name
What if you were me and what if I was you?
Maybe you'd see what I go through
I'm looking up but my sky ain't blue
I just see dark
I say my prayers, I ask for forgiveness
No, I'm not perfect
I promise I'll try, I promise I'll cry
Sometimes I feel like I'm not even alive
But my heart's still beating
So I must be tripping
My father was a ghost but I still wanna forgive him
I know a lot of you can relate to this song
'Cause it came from my heart, just know that you're not alone

I know a lot of you can relate
We need a help before it's too late
I look in the mirror and I feel the shame
'Cause maybe I'm the one that caused myself this pain

I'm so lost
What does it cost
To find myself
I wanna feel better
I'm so lost
What does it cost
To find myself
I wanna feel better

I wear a shell of armour
'Cause I've been stabbed in the back so many times
Those really God left for me, that's always on my mind
I know I got my flaws, I know I told some lies
I know I probably seem like I was the devil in disguise
Do you know how it feels when you got nobody?
You keep it all inside 'cause you got nobody
To really tell how you feel
And express how it kills
Every moment of your day
And you just wanna fly away
Shit, I just popped all these pills
Shit, I just pulled the trigger
Shit, I just hold on to my kids, get older and bigger
I don't know, can somebody tell me now
'Cause the devil's reaching out
And he's telling me to take myself out

I know a lot of you can relate
We need a help before it's too late
I look in the mirror and I feel the shame
'Cause maybe I'm the one that caused myself this pain

I'm so lost
What does it cost
To find myself
I wanna feel better
I'm so lost
What does it cost
To find myself
I wanna feel better

Every time I try to smile I feel so miserable
I used to feel like I was invincible
Every time I try to smile I feel so miserable
I used to feel like I was invincible

I know a lot of you can relate
We need a help before it's too late
I look in the mirror and I feel the shame
'Cause maybe I'm the one that caused myself this pain

I'm so lost
What does it cost
To find myself
I wanna feel better
I'm so lost
What does it cost
To find myself
I wanna feel better