Not Alright, Not Okay

They don't be feeling me, for real
They be like "What's the point?"
I be like "Just keep this shit to myself
They don't be feeling me, for real, like what's the point?"
(AJ on them keys)

I'm not alright, I'm not okay
I'm all alone inside this shit (They don't feel me or somethin')
I feel my heart beating, but I swear it's not within (What else?)
They see a star, when they see more, look at me, I'm so empty (How I see myself, the truth)
I'm locked away inside my room, fighting this shit (In my shit by myself)
Fighting my pain, I'm so scared, slicing my wrists (Hear me?)
I'm just one shot to the head, how could I miss? (How?)
I'm not alright, I'm not okay (It's like y'all don't hear me and shit)
I wanna change so bad, but would you listen? (Would you listen?)
What you know how I feel, would it make a difference? (What?)
What I'm going through the most, that's when I'm chilling (That's when I'm chillest)

When I start thinking about Trayvon, I want more killins' (I want more killins')
I tried to patch up all my past with all these millions (But I can't)
How can I accept some help when they don't feel me (Don't feel me)
Imagine them taking everything that's gon' kill me
Oh-oh, I feel invisible
Oh-oh, am I rememberable?
Oh-oh, oh, I'm forgettable
Oh-oh, life support, critical (Damn)
Looking in my son, tryna see if he see the meaning in me (See this shit)
I'm making sure all y'all good, everybody in here breathing, but me (Everybody in here breathing, but me)

I'm not alright, I'm not okay (Not)
I'm all alone inside this shit (They don't feel me or somethin')
I feel my heart beating, but I swear it's not within (It's not within me)
They see a star, when they see more, look at me, I'm so empty (How I see myself, the truth)
I'm locked away inside my room, fighting this shit (Locked away inside my room)
Fighting my pain, I'm so scared, slicing my wrists (My pain, I'm so scared)
I'm just one shot to the head, how could I miss? (How?)
I'm not alright, I'm not okay (It's like they don't hear me and shit)
I wanna change so bad, but would you listen? (Would you listen?)
What you know how I feel, would it make a difference? (Make a difference)
What I'm going through the most, that's when I'm chilling (That's when I'm chillin')

I'm not alright, I'm not okay (That's when I'm chillin')
What I'm going through the most, that's when I'm chilling
I'm not alright, I'm not okay (That's when I'm chillin')
Nobody still listening

It's like I'm fighting this shit still
Like fighting this shit within me and shit
It's like I'm battling within myself
That shit like on a deeper a way way deeper level, or some shit
I mean it's like I'm losing it though
I'm fighting this fight and I'm losing
And this shit just ain't getting no easier though