Made Me This Way

(альбом: Hard Pills And Heartbreak - 2021)

I got some rough edges
No, I ain't no saint (No, I ain't no saint)
I've done things I know I shouldn't
And I took all the blame (And I took all the blame)
But it's been a long time
Since I made the same mistakes (The same mistakes)
I'm living with those lessons learned
Of what made me this way

Just a young lad with a tad of vodka
And a half a bottle of pills
I was always popping them up-and-downers
I was in love with them hills (Hills)
Some missed the test, I guessed the best I could
Didn't know right from left, yet did good
I was more impressed with being the redneck
With a wild woman in the truck bed (Cha-ching)
Having sex, and then after sex
My buddy texts her, getting the head next
We acted as if we didn't have respect
For anyone, that's big facts
But to get it, you gotta give it
I had to live it to spit it
So I spent them late nights spinning
Higher than a New York pidgeon
Never checked in, Mama asking
"Where you been?" I been with friends
What she didn't know woulda crushed her soul
'Cause I was on a two-week binge (Sorry, Mama)
While she was nightly praying
For the Lord to forgive me for my sins
Now we live states apart, I stare in the dark
Thinking about back then (Yeah)

I got some rough edges
No, I ain't no saint (No, I ain't no saint)
I've done things I know I shouldn't
And I took all the blame (And I took all the blame)
But it's been a long time
Since I made the same mistakes (The same mistakes)
I'm living with those lessons learned
Of what made me this way

Well I did a little growing up
Started showing up to work on time (Time)
But punching that timeclock
Got old quick and I quit (Peace)
Then I met a chick and it
Started getting serious (It did)
She came home one day
And said that she was pregnant with my kid (That's right)
So I did what everyone here did
I bought a ring and started talking marriage
But it wasn't horses and a carriage (Nah)
It was screaming, cussing, and yelling
Hell, if I'd have known then what I do now
I'd have known that kids having kids seldom worked out
But I didn't, so I just bounced
Every chance I'd get, I was staying lit
Riding in that Tahoe
With a bottle and some so-called friends
While my wife was at home crying, no lying
I was dumb as shit
And the sad thing is I've done this
For a long time before she left
Now I live with the regrets (Yeah)

I got some rough edges
No, I ain't no saint (No, I ain't no saint)
I've done things I know I shouldn't
And I took all the blame (And I took all the blame)
But it's been a long time
Since I made the same mistakes (The same mistakes)
I'm living with those lessons learned
Of what made me this way