Trying To

Feel like I can't live my life 'til I conquer all my fears
But, I'm feeling pretty good, guess there's not much that I fear
Implemented no new friends, ended up with like no friends
And if ugly is my name, well, then, pretty's what I'm is
Just discovered my worth, feeling awesome as ever
When I make plans for the future I follow through in the present
Is everybody my cousin?
Every woman a lesson?
Every rapper the best rapper, 'cause well, fuck, that's impressive
That there's a no from me, bruh
We just ain't taking them drugs
And if you prodding for something, I think your newest shit suck
I think I'm better than y'all, think I've got me that juice
And when it come to that squeeze, I'm nothing short of the truth
And that ain't nothing but facts, need to drop some new singles
I got some women I smash, but file taxes as single
And look, if this shit's so bad, then why you show for no reason?
Ain't nobody here need you, and when you see me believe

That I've been trying to enjoy myself
Takes a little time 'fore you know yourself
I've been trying, I've been trying
I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying

I've been trying to enjoy myself
Takes a little time 'fore you know yourself
I've been trying, I've been trying
I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying

But I just don't get inspired by nobody, just a bunch of nobodies
I'm at that point in my life where some exposure mean nothing
'Cause I don't show up for clout
You like my Netflix subscription, like, dawg, is you still around?
'Cause I forgot you existed
I think a chance just got missed, but not the chance that I found
And most the time that advance, don't always help you advance
Don't always need that shit now, that shit it don't ever last
And when I reach my decline, I'll swipe my card 'til I'm spent
So much that on and off shit
Still rather ask for forgiveness, but long as I'm getting checks
Then I'll stay minding your business
You shouldn't play with your life, on every court with no lights
Or turn your back on somebody that come equipped with a knife
Just shit I've learned over time, lots of blood on my spine
That's why it's me and myself, left everybody behind
And everybody that helps, doesn't receive any help
And every dance with the devil is just a dance by yourself

So I've been trying to enjoy myself
Takes a little time 'fore you know yourself
I've been trying, I've been trying
I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying

I've been trying to enjoy myself
Takes a little time 'fore you know yourself
I've been trying, I've been trying
I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying, I've been trying
I've been trying