Love And Drugs

I'm a sucker for pain; from love to drugs, it's always the same
I say I do different, I need me a change
Without taking steps to be more humane

I'm the same person, I remain thirsty
Twenties' what's the fuck up, but now my face thirty
Still making mistakes like I was thirteen
In thirty years I'll probably be in a grave flirting
With death, that's one thing I can say for certain, fuck yes
What next? Heaven or Hell?
Apples and trees, or butt sex?

I'm a sucker for pain; from love to drugs, it's always the same
I say I do different, I need me a change
Without taking steps to be more humane
I take all these tablets just to maintain
They don't know what goes on inside of this brain
So they can screw off when they call me insane
'Cause they would be too if they felt all this pain

It starts with one milligram of Ativan three times daily
Forty milligrams of Celexa to keep the depression under the umbrella
It sucks hella, much rather do something much better
Like lay on the beach with sluts wet up
But nope, I'm depressed
Haven't shaved in three weeks in the same dumb sweater

I'm a sucker for pain; from love to drugs, it's always the same
I say I do different, I need me a change
Without taking steps to be more humane
I take all these tablets just to maintain
They don't know what goes on inside of this brain
So they can screw off when they call me insane
'Cause they would be too if they felt all this pain

Now the pills don't work, I've grown a tolerance
So now it's just mixed bottles with Ativan and Klonopin
Nodding in and out of consciousness
I go to work and pick up phone calls, I'm a receptionist
"How can I help you, bitch?!
I don't care about your eleven kids, how beautiful the weather is
Hey boss man, I quit!
To hell with this, to hell with you
To hell with anyone who hasn't helped with shit in my development
Don't get me wrong, I don't expect a bit of a handout
There's a madhouse in my brain, it's getting bad now
So everyone duck 'cause I'm taking this gat out!"

I'm a sucker for pain; from love to drugs, it's always the same
I say I do different, I need me a change
Without taking steps to be more humane
I take all these tablets just to maintain
They don't know what goes on inside of this brain
So they can screw off when they call me insane
'Cause they would be too if they felt all this pain