I Can't Trust My Mind

(альбом: Poltergeist - 2019)

And the wheels still spinning, tank on empty
On my entry everyone repenting
I don't like most folks I'm just friendly
Film my life but it's real no pretending
And my demons only wanna see the ending
Shit offends me
Never be wolf once you been sheep
What you feast on, that's my lunch meat
Put a landmine in my front seat
They don't haunt me now they just hunt me
We don't chop them down we just burn trees
Work like birdseed when you look like ten feet
Ten speed

I can't trust my mind
It does whatever for its kind
It's like there's someone else inside
Who'd kill me just to stay alive

It's a struggle just to smile
I been blind to the bullshit for a while
Footballs got me mellow but my mind run a mile
Let me be somewhere low key chilling with my child
Fame make friends turn to enemies and it's sad
Throw a stack on a bag make a hundred thirty grand
And I'm still down
We tipping bottles for the lost ones
I'm just killing time until that call come
Plant some cook by my tombstone
Young, rich, and grumpy yea we eating 'til the food gone
I just put my whole crew on
Twist a cap, pull a little pill out to chew on (goodnight)

I go numb again
Big head weigh me down, but that's my only friend
Door on auto-lock, hop, hit the water walk
For a foreign drop top who don't talk a lot
If I bottle pop
That ain't drip that's a script with no follow-ups
This a zip, lemonade but it got a punch
Built it all from below where it's bottom up
Still it's not enough

I can't trust my mind
It does whatever for its kind
It's like there's someone else inside
Who'd kill me just to stay alive

Can't trust my mind