cantbmyfault

(альбом: dygytaldysmorphya - 2023)

(It's like 1 in the morning but I made this)

Everything up in my head is spinning
I can't seem to figure it out
Life's a mess can't tell who's winning
An unhealthy dose of self doubt
Life sucks when your mom's not smiling
Wish she would just figure it out
Dad thinks I'm the reason she's upset
Can you hear yourself though now
Hear yourself hear how you sound
Wish you knew but it's just a cover up
Lord knows that he needs some self love

You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that's what you think it is
So I tune out you don't make sense
How is it my fault it can't be my fault
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that's what you think it is
So I tune out you don't make sense
How is it my fault it can't be my fault

So many layers to my soul
I'm not surprised you don't get me at all no
Maybe I'm too complicated or
You don't wanna know me and you hate it
So you don't say shit
And ignore me
But I'm unfazed
How boring
See my life is
Like a movie
I'm not watching
Cos I'm destroying

You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that's what you think it is
So I tune out you don't make sense
How is it my fault it can't be my fault
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that's what you think it is
So I tune out you don't make sense
How is it my fault it can't be my fault

(Yeah that just felt good to say.)
(Okay um, hold on I still have more in me um)

Nicotina I can't leave her no not at all
All these cigarettes been stuck to my lips
Fingers burning and my stomach hurts so much
I could quit but for some reason I love it
Mama wouldn't like to see it give her a call
She thinks she fucked up and can't forgive herself
She's the purest soul I wish her nothing but love
But sometimes my dad gets in her head
In her head
And sometimes I am too
In her head she don't know what to do
In her head she think she's done me wrong
But in my head I've gotta stay so strong
Why is it always my foot forward
Why is he so stuck up annoying
Don't get it and you don't get me either
There's differences I think I see clearer

You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that's what you think it is
So I tune out you don't make sense
How is it my fault it can't be my fault
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that's what you think it is
So I tune out you don't make sense
How is it my fault it can't be my fault