self sabotage

I've been climbing on this ladder for months
Time has worn it down now I'm breaking the rungs
City smog blackening my lungs
I'm used to shitty days
This stuff just isn't fun anymore
Where did all the time go
Spent it with my eyes closed
Spent it with some fake friends
Dissing ain't a typo
Now my pockets fat
They gonna need some lipo'
I always spend it fast
I make it in a night though

Self sabotage
I'm with my entourage
Cold shoulder
I don't really wanna talk
And I don't wanna stop
Until I'm on the top
Don't want another thought
Of when my bones will rot
Self sabotage
I'm with my entourage
Cold shoulder
I don't really wanna talk
And I don't wanna stop
Until I'm on the top
Don't want another thought
Of when my bones will rot

I need excitement
Something that could pump my blood around
I've been fighting with myself every time I'm down
And I turned blue right at the bottom
Man you let me drown now they ask me
Why I never bring that girl around
Done with that phase
I ain't coming back aye
But the pain stays
Tatted with the sad face
Sit back look at all the damage
I never knew I caused it
But I saw it when you vanished
I really hurt myself for you
I cry I feel I'm just like you
And I killed my body
And I killed my brain
I'm a bag of bones baby
Walking in the rain (I call it)

Self sabotage
I'm with my entourage
Cold shoulder
I don't really wanna talk
And I don't wanna stop
Until I'm on the top
Don't want another thought
Of when my bones will rot
Self sabotage
I'm with my entourage
Cold shoulder
I don't really wanna talk
And I don't wanna stop
Until I'm on the top
Don't want another thought
Of when my bones will rot