Vacant

I can't think I feel so stressed
I can't feel love it's so hopeless

And I just wanna be successful or I wanna be happy
I been working hard trynna make it all happen
I believe in myself even when nobody else do
Lawd
And I just wanna be successful or I wanna be happy
I been working hard trynna make it all happen
I believe in myself even when nobody else do
You down to the ground nigga don't let that affect you
I said this shit before but I'ma do it my way
I swear to God I'm focused you know where to find me
Time is of the essence, I promise not to waste it
I'll take happiness or wealth, whichever one don't leave me
Vacant, vacant, ah

Sit alone with my thoughts, let me reflect
And rummage through my mental checklist of regret
It's okay, I'm just gon wallow with my sorrows I guess
If you see me crying in public, please walk on by
These are the tears of a clown I'm spilling
This pain is the realest feeling
I feel for the life of me
I, just can't attain what I want
These wishful thinking prayers
I hope Jehovah hears, but honestly, they're falling on deaf ears
I'm revered as a rapid writer, releasing lines, I'm igniting the fire inside your soul
That's controlled by your insecurities
Can tell the personality trace, just to fit in with the fake
So that you blend in with the rest of the vagues
It's a shame, there's beauty inside of yourself
But look you gotta find it
Within our darkest moments, we control our mental climates
Never fold under pressure, that's what makes diamonds
And even if you failed a million times, continue trying

And I just wanna be successful or I wanna be happy
I been working hard trynna make it all happen
I believe in myself even when nobody else do
You down to the ground nigga don't let that affect you
I said this shit before but I'ma do it my way
I swear to God I'm focused you know where to find me
Time is of the essence, I promise not to waste it
I'll take happiness or wealth, whichever one don't leave me
Vacant, vacant, ah

People miss the negate the fact that I am a loner
My simple mind has been stressing over these things I conjure
And I'll admit that I'm selfish, ignoring other's problems
I never see the bigger picture, too reactionary
I take advantage of the fact my mother's there for me
I rarely say I love her, if I do, I say it sparingly
Embarrassed by my lack of compassion I wanted normalcy
I know I need to go and see a doctor for conformity
Of mind, body, spirit and soul, my God tell me why I'm cold
Murder opponents I will
No empathy that I feel
I found myself I was lost, but for my sake I just
Hope that it isn't too late, flashbacks of cold razor blades
How could I say that on record I still remember
My homie telling me that I was tripping
Said "You need to be aware of what you speaking, man these people are listening, don't that shit affect your conscious?
How are you sleeping my nigga?"

And I just wanna be successful or I wanna be happy
I been working hard trynna make it all happen
I believe in myself even when nobody else do
Lawd
And I just wanna be successful or I wanna be happy
I been working hard trynna make it all happen
I believe in myself even when nobody else do
You down to the ground nigga don't let that affect you
I said this shit before but I'ma do it my way
I swear to God I'm focused you know where to find me
Time is of the essence, I promise not to waste it
I'll take happiness or wealth, whichever one don't leave me
Vacant, vacant, ah

I can't think I feel so stressed
I can't feel love it's so hopeless
I can't think I feel so stressed
I can't think I feel so stressed
I can't feel love it's so hopeless
I can't think I feel so stressed
I can't feel love it's so hopeless
Lawd
Knowledge, nigga
Shoutout to my homie SGULL for the beat, I appreciate this shit
That's its though, I'm done
Nah that's it I'm done, God bless I'm done
Nah nigga I said God bless I'm done
Thank you, thank you
Goodbye, I got shit to do
Alright that's it