I Can't Sleep

(альбом: Flowers For The Dead - 2020)

I've been running out of different ways to pass time
The devil's work is done by idle hands and I've been bored since last night
Jump into the whip and start to drive like it's my last ride
Looking for a bridge where I can crash, see if I can fly
Hit my head against the wall till I got black eyes
Sitting on the sofa, drinking soda, watching plants die
It's stupid but I'm scared that I might lose it and I can't cry
The devil smells the tears and he been chilling here, don't ask why
The garbage can been full and hella pizza boxes stacked high
Hit the Ativan and now I'm anxious out my damn mind
Got eighty grand and clothes, and a couple chains, and a rad life
But all I'm really after was happiness money can't buy
Stressing every second to drop a record my fans like
Puking from the pressure, I'm throwing up like some gang signs
Standing on a mountain that an average man can't climb
Waiting for an avalanche or landslide

I can't sleep
I'm out of my head
I'm losing my mind and no one understands
Woooooah
And I can't breathe
I'm over the edge
I'm dying inside, I'm afraid how this might end
Woooooah

And I'm running out of ways to fight the bad thoughts, I can't stop
Cigarettes are filling up the empty cans and plant pots
I tried to keep my demons locked away with chains and padlocks
They found a way to break out of the cage and they won't back off
Everyday I call my parents, me, my mom and dad talk
I tell them that I'm fine but it all changes when I hang up
There's whiskey in the cupboard, I've been trying to keep my hands off
It's calling to me everyday like, come on, Tom, let's have shots
Mansions in my head, I hop the fence into the backyard
Looking through the windows at all the rooms that my past haunts
Filling up my laptop with last words and chat logs
There's ashes on my mattress 'cause I smoke until I crash hard
I think I lost my mind, I'm trying to find it in these sad songs
Following my footprints but the track stopped
Fighting with the devil, but he didn't think I'd last long
But I ain't backing down, I'mma stand strong

I can't sleep
I'm out of my head
I'm losing my mind and no one understands
Woooooah
And I can't breathe
I'm over the edge
I'm dying inside, I'm afraid how this might end
Woooooah

My mind is racing
I'm going crazy
I wanna hide in my bed
I think that maybe
Something can save me
But I don't know what that thing is

I can't sleep
I'm out of my head
I'm losing my mind and no one understands
Woooooah
And I can't breathe
I'm over the edge
I'm dying inside, I'm afraid how this might end
Woooooah