Bad Thoughts

(альбом: Unstable - 2021)

Suicidal thoughts running through my mind daily
Praying for the day that somebody gonna save me
Maybe lately I've been feeling crazy
Constantly obsess over thoughts and its getting dangerous
Thinking is a hobby that will probably get me killed
I'm taking medication I'm dependent on the pills
Therapy is scary cause I tell them how I feel
Being open with a stranger is sorta a big deal
My mind is racing thoughts are spacey and I'm agitated
Dumb responses in my comments get me aggravated
I'm past the point of breaking no mistake I'm a do it
Its getting hard to breath with this rope that's around my throat what!

I think you better back off (woo)
I've been having bad thoughts (woo)
You think its fun to be me
Its time I take the mask off (woo)
I think you better back off (woo)
I've been having bad thoughts (woo)
Lately I feel crazy paranoid like people hate me facing constant isolation take the mask off

I put it all in a cage and let it build up
God damn its a crazy way to live
I don't wanna be out of my head any more I've been at it since I was a kid
Been an addict for most of my life and its all because I never fit in my skin
What you know about waking up feeling like you in a prison guess you never been
Fist bump not a hand shake
Get away from the man when the man have a bad day
No breaks in the fast lane you get towed once t ya gotta pull it like a hand brake
All eyes on me and it feel like I just took some dust and I'm outta my brain
I'm all over the place and I just want to be able to live without going insane

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I don't know, I don't see how I could be on a regular base with anyone else on the planet
I want to be out of this space in my head created to feel like I'm sane
But its just an illusion I'm running away from myself and I'm wearing a mask cause you grounded me

I think you better back off (woo)
I've been having bad thoughts (woo)
You think its fun to be me
Its time I take the mask off (woo)
I think you better back off (woo)
I've been having bad thoughts (woo)
Lately I feel crazy paranoid like people hate me facing constant isolation take the mask off