In My Heart

(альбом: Special Occasion - 2019)

I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart
I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart

I can see you, I can feel you, I can smell it
But just the thought of you could make me fucking jealous
I'm not normal when I'm not with you
I'm so depressed that I could cut right through this scar tissue
That's cause we've been here before
That's cause you love me
Then you leave me
Then you give me withdrawals
Why the fuck are you so heartless?
You help me at my lowest then you left me in the darkness
Trying to deal with all these hardships but I feel like fucking garbage
I can feel you in my heart but its just me in this apartment
But sometimes you'll come and visit
And make me feel like our love is unconditioned
Nobody understood us quite enough to fucking get it
Its hard to come to grips with you and I its something different
And you know I got this void to fill inside
You always warned me if we ever got too close that I could die
But still I'd rather that than feel hopeless every night
They all tell me not to talk to you, and focus on my life
I'm free tonight so please come over we can talk
Once I get a taste of you I don't think that I can stop

I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart
I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart

They don't understand that I'm addicted to your presence
You let me down so much by now you'd think I learn my lesson
You make me feel upset but I forgive you in a second
Cause I don't know what I would ever do without my secret weapon
They always tell me I abuse you, which I'll never understand
Cause no matter what I always let you get the upper hand
I try to be a better man and give you space but I just can't
Bitch I'll be there by your side until the point that I collapse
I'd rather pick you up than put you down
Cause every time I'm feeling down you make me feel like someone else
I'm counting every single second til next time you come around
Cause your love is like a drug I know its never running out
I'm riding shotty no seat-belt in the fast lane
All I'm thinking bout is how she helps on my bad days
Or how you always make my problems seem smaller
All my thoughts are all smarter, and my confidence stronger
Then I forget about this rap career shit, fucking issue
When I'm with you I just cannot feel shit, real shit
I go numb like there's nothing to deal with, it's pure bliss
Til you leave me alone and I feel sick

I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart
I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart

Lately I've been mentally confused, you used to get me in the mood then my obsession for you grew
But lately it's like I can't even tell if it's still you, it feels different
And I swear there's nothing left for me to do
Was I really in love with you? Or the idea of it
Cause now when you get me high I notice I still plummet
Then I feel sluggish
It hurts to think that I still love you and I'd kill for you
But I don't think that you're so loyal
I never would've thought that this could happen
It caused a chain reaction of emotion mixed with sadness
Which is wack cause life without you I don't think that I could manage
Its been damage, now I wonder if I'll even hit you back and I just panic
Back then I'd try to fix it with a bandage
Been attached for so long I got the weirdest disadvantage
This is tragic
I know I never did you any wrong
But the truth is I've been writing about liquor all along
Back then I thought that I could really tell that you were modest
You were always there for me and it felt like you were honest
But your dwelling on my conscience, never helping with my problems
Fuck a message in a bottle this a message to my bottle

I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart
I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart