More Than Music IV
(专辑: Even When I'm Happy I Listen To Sad Music - 2022)
Yeah You ever feel like you don't say enough while also saying too much? Overthink so long 'bout what people gon' probably judge Too many signs misread from ones I
thought I
loved Guess the
closest to your heart can deal you the
worst cuts Lately petrified from these lessons I
shoulda known Start to question my existence—the other thing's that I
don't It's why I'm closed off, unread messages on my phone And the
words I
wish I
said all stuck inside of my throat Tryna let it out, they told me, "Breathe, trust me, you fine" While my heart rate increased, anxiety filled my mind I
can barely go a
day without fearing my own decline So I
pace around my room, alone, writing these lines I'm defeated often, oh the
irony of persistence And pursue the
happiness I
confused the
purpose of living It's a
blue sky outside but I
ain't close to finished I
obsess over this fear, letting down future children I'm a
menace, I'm an outcast tending with all this pain I'm as lonely as a
spell that's cast away in the
rain Built a
castle on a
hill that crumbled from all this change Tryna put it back together is different but still the
same Am I
making sense? What if I'm not even making sense? What if I
dropped a
song and no one relates to me in the
end? I
know it all depends I
feel my heart beat through this pen, I
think it's heaven-sent I
don't just fake weak for a
trend, this is all I
got My side is beautiful This is all I
got My side is beautiful, I
know My side is beautiful My side is beautiful Yeah Every piece of me inside this music Somedays scared I
won't get it back Often think about the
factory job that I
started at Would I
be happier never checking on my social stats? Got so blinded by a
dream and the
things that I
coulda had Soley guided by emotion, stranded out in the
open Waves crashing overboard as my spirit was barely coping Trouble holding on, except to this cigarette that I'm smoking This ain't what I
planned, not even close to what I
was hoping But there's beauty in the
struggle, something I'd come to find God tests His strongest soldiers to keep 'em present in mind And in mine, would you stay? Never leave from my side? 'Cause in Christ, you strengthen me, I'm so powerful I
could fly But I
stumble often, I'm not as perfect as I
seem All this anger in my chest I
keep hidden behind the
scenes Along a
journey and my growth, I'm only a
human being More Than Music is precisely what all of these lyrics mean It means I'm incomplete, broken, often misunderstood On this lonely road we walk, never gave up when others would Found in a
lost place, done everything that I
should Just 'cause there's darkness in my past it doesn't mean I'm not good I
swear I'm trying My side is beautiful I
swear I'm trying My side is beautiful, I
know My side is beautiful My side is beautiful, I
know My side is beautiful My side is beautiful, I
know My side is beautiful My side is beautiful, I
know My side is beautiful, I
know Yeah