Loving Me & Losing You

Why do I have to choose
Between loving me and loving you
I've grown attached to the things you do
But lately I've been feeling so blue

Baby
And I've been on my own since eighteen
Just tryna figure things out lately
Nothing seems to make any sense
Thought you could save me
But realize now that that sounds crazy
I'm thankful for all that you gave me
But the pressure's starting to feel immense

So where do I go now
As the walls seem to be crumbling down
I think I love you but don't know how
And so I'm stumbling to figure it out

Soon as get in my zone
I struggle to not feel alone now
I rarely will pick up my phone
Then wonder why I'm on my own now
I told that I needed to grow
But realized that I just don't know how
I told myself I need to go
But where am I supposed to go now

I don't wanna wait to too long to tell you that I love you but I might
I don't wanna wait this long to finally let go and live my life
I'm struggling to write this song
I'm struggling to tell myself it'll be alright
I need to rewrite my wrongs
But need to keep writing till I finally see my name in lights

Soon as get in my zone
I struggle to not feel alone now
I rarely will pick up my phone
Then wonder why I'm on my own now
I said that I needed to grow
But realized that I just don't know how
I told myself I need to go
But where am I supposed to go now
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone

I'm so blue baby
And I've been on my own since eighteen
Just tryna figure things out lately
But nothing seems to make any sense
Thought you could save me
But realize now that that sounds crazy
I'm thankful for all that you gave me
But the pressure's starting to feel immense

I'm so blue baby
And I've been on my own since eighteen
Just tryna figure things out lately
But nothing seems to make any sense
Thought you could save me
But realize now that that sounds crazy
I'm thankful for all that you gave me
But the pressure's starting to feel immense

Oh why do I tell people I love them
When I know that I'm better off saying nothing
I force myself to drown in these discussions
I shouldn't have

And now I'm loving me
But losing you