Social Stamina

I lost touch with all my friends
I'm in bed by 10pm
I have no social stamina
I cancel on all my plans
I commit then I don't answer
I can't keep up with anyone

Now I'm a desert island I know
I push away until I'm alone
When did I become
Someone no one loves
I'm a broken record it shows
All I ever say is "no"
When did I become
Someone I don't love

Now I don't know, I don't know who I am
How did I
Turn into a person who I can't stand
How did I
Let it get this bad, now I can't go back, now I'm all I have
And I don't know, I don't know who I am

Trigger warnings in my mind
I'm so vulnerable at night
So I watch romantic comedies
But happy couples make me cry
I can't find someone in real life
Always feel like somethings wrong with me

Now I'm a desert island I know
I push away until I'm alone
When did I become
Someone no one loves

Now I don't know, I don't know who I am
How did I
Turn into a person who I can't stand
How did I
Let it get this bad, now I can't go back, now I'm all I have
And I don't know, I don't know who I am

Now I don't know, I don't know who I am...