I'm Lying
(专辑: When Stars Align - 2019)
I
just like... I've never really talked about this, you know? Yeah I
pray the
Lord, my soul to keep This can't be fixed, I'd rather weep I
hate this house, I'm down to leave My mom's a
snake, my daddy drinks Don't know my dad, he don't know me We're not like how we used to be We don't connect, we hardly speak He tries to drive, I
hide the
keys I'm baby sitting a
grown man At seventeen, at seventeen He's fucking pissed and starts to scream My heart races and skips a
beat We're face to face I
can't believe that every day's the
same old thing We fight all night, I
hardly sleep I'd wish he'd listen to me plead "A sober you is what we need" This wears me thin, I'm feeling weak I
feel hopeless to say the
least, fuck He never slows down, uh Never slows down on the
whisky The
more shots he takes, the
more risky Most times, things tend to go south quickly He's depending on liquor, we're depending on him He's calling out of work, there's no money coming in We're about to lose the
house, how can we let it slip? Factor in the
fact that I
had to hold all of it in I
hate when... They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" Outside, they know, deep down, I'm lying They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" Outside, they know, deep down, I'm lying Ooh, I'm lying Ooh, I'm lying Ooh, I'm lying (I'm broken, empty inside) Fuck Yeah I
pray the
Lord, my soul to take I
lost my hope, I
lost my faith I
hate this house, wish I'd escape My dad's a
drunk, my mom's a
snake Don't know my mom, she don't know me She's out all night and can't be traced It's been a
week, ain't seen her face We hardly speak, what can I
say? I'm dealing with a
grown woman Who can't be saved, who can't be saved She's lost her mind, she's a
lost case She's filled with greed, I'm dying to say "It don't matter how much you make When you account how much you've waste" She blows her cheques, she gambles late She takes her shot, we're in her aim She doesn't stop, the
bills aren't paid She blames my dad when she's to blame Tell me, how much more can I
take? Fuck She never slows down, uh Never slows down on the
gambling Her life falls apart as time passes She's blind to all of the
things that can happen She's losing control and she can't get a
grip She's addicted to the
slots, there's no money coming in We're about to lose a
house, how can we let it slip? Factor in the
fact that I
had to hold all of it in I
hate when... They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" Outside, they know, deep down, I'm lying They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" Outside, they know, deep down, I'm lying Ooh, I'm lying Ooh, I'm lying Ooh, I'm lying (I'm broken, empty inside) (Yeah) I'm broken I'm broken I'm broken I'm broken, empty inside