Drowning
(专辑: Still Lost 2 - 2021)
I
wish I
can numb this pain I
thought by now I
won't complain I
got the
cash with half the
fame Lost half my heart and kept the
veins We had our spark and lost our flame I
tried to talk, had none to say I
want the
love, you never gave Was hurting me your only aim You shot my heart, I
bled out hate Cuz tho you left, the
trauma stayed I
wish the
past, would go away But I
guess gotta live with it Times changed, I
don't feel different Despite the
hurdles in my life I
kept my vision alive I
had no one on my side, yet I
still did it I'm missing the
old me, talking pre-depression Where I
felt alive and I
had a
connection Now I'm dead inside cuz I
lost my direction I
don't put my wall down for my own protection And I'm tired of people using me People lie what do you believe I
know people see the
truth in me And I
know one day you will see That being true was a
tool for me I
be sticking to myself, I
don't need nobody else Just relief, from this trauma That keeps on ruining me Cuz lately Im loosing sleep And nobody's getting thru to me It's Cuz It Feels like I'm losing sleep I
want my mind at ease Feels like I'm losing me I
wanna find relief Feels like I
need to breath I
think I'm into deep, now I'm drowning in my thoughts Drowning, by myself I'm Drowning, I
need help I'm Drowning, they can't tell I'm Drowning, oh I'm still here and still driven People see me as a
meal ticket They get nothing, they can deal with it I
guess me and them were built different I
work for whatever I'm given I
been living inside of my room since I
was fifteen Making a
bunch a
songs hoping somebody gets me I
always felt alone and the
feeling is sickening When your expressing your pain and no one is listening And life's hard to manage I
feel like I
have a
disadvantage Since my childhood left me hella damaged I
don't know love because I
never had it Every relationship I'm in never lasted Only toxic woman was all I
attracted I
continuously fear having attachments Honestly It was really hard getting past it But It is what it is you get what you give I
wish I
learned quicker, look, I
probably did Just didn't accept it Inside of my mind is where my demons roam I
try to hide cuz they won't leave me alone I
overthink all of my mistakes on my own I
don't know where to go, it's cuz it Feels like I'm losing sleep I
want my mind at ease Feels like I'm losing me I
wanna find relief Feels like I
need to breath I
think I'm into deep, now I'm drowning in my thoughts Drowning, by myself I'm Drowning, I
need help I'm Drowning, they can't tell I'm Drowning, oh