Don't Take It Personal

I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you

They just see the final edit, they don't ever know behind the scenes
CJ's living a nightmare, Yungen's living the dream
Wore a fake smile for years, now it's starting to wear off, shit they ain't got a clue where I been
They say I'm paranoid, well you try being kidnapped as a kid
A gun put to your head and taken from where you live
I saw psychiatrists for months, them people mess up how you think
I swear to God I ain't been the same since
Too young to understand, but old enough to be scared
My dad took me to Jamaica until everything cleared
Come back to a new house, new school now everything's so weird
Thinking back it still leaves me in tears
Fast forward some years
My mum fucked off to Jamaica
Left me home alone at 13, that shit made me hate her
Probably 'cos I used to love her so much
She was gone 3 months and barely kept in touch
Going through hell, thinking life ain't fair
I felt like my older sister was the only one there
No electric, no gas here but who can I tell
'cos if I do I'll probably end up in care
But while you was out robbing man for fun, I was robbing 'cos I had to
Everybody called me a bad yout'
That tore me up because they didn't have a clue
They judged me, I just wished they knew

Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you

I ain't been school in weeks
I was out on the streets
There weren't one single lesson teaching me how to eat
Has your house ever been so cold you can't sleep?
I was in the ends trying to make ends meet
Yeah, my mum come back but she was gone again before I knew it
It's sad, I just got used to it
But when she came back for good she kicked me out, yeah I've been through it
Only the Lord knows how I didn't lose it
They tried to put me in a hostel in a ends that I've got beef in
It's so peak that I ain't sleeping
I just wanna go home but it's real here and I ain't leaving
Trying to speak to God, all I got was a ceiling
Hoping my dad would come and save me but he ain't tried
Plus one of my closest friends just died
I felt like my whole world was crumbling before my eyes
There were times I didn't wanna be alive
But take all of this away I wouldn't be who I am
Even though it wasn't part of the plan
Real shit, that turned me from a boy to a man
I'm tryna sort everything that I can
Tryna rebuild with my mum, hoping she's gonna change
Even though they say that she's to blame
But for once in my life, I don't need her but I want her, I still love her, I hope she feels the same

Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
Don't take this personal