Tiny Angel
(专辑: Vintage Modern - 2017)
So this story, is about a
really close friend of mine I
love you, brother My mates talk shit about their wives, but I
love mine Yeah we fight sometimes, but ain't that just life? She's been pregnant now for some time, it took us years And enough tries, I
thought it wouldn't happen from my young life From the
drunk times, or when I
tried drugs twice I
thought downstairs had gone and messed it up, right The
doctor told me that I
need to stop stressing The
only thing that's working against us is just time That was true, two months by My wife called me up while I
was working at the
pub, right She told me I
was gonna be a
daddy We both broke down, she said there's something that I
done right I
called my mother, told her I
was gonna be a
father Mum cried, so did I, I
was tongue-tied I
can't explain this feeling but I
love life I've never had a
purpose and this had just become mine To create this little person that's fun size A
little bit of her, and a
little bit of me But I
pray he gets his mum's eyes I
say he 'cause I've always wanted a
son, right The
ultrasound said it's a
boy, my little ray of sunshine It dawned on me, I
can't wait to see my son rise You know what they say about time though? It does fly Fast forward nine months and suddenly it's crunch time It's been a
few days of going through contractions Gotta stopwatch timing every moment that it happens We reached five minutes so it's hospital time I
call ahead to see the
doctors arrive, my wife's laughing Now I
properly drive like the
cops are behind But there was barely any traffic so we got there in time I'm a
little scared, but she ain't got a
worry in sight She's a
warrior, exactly what you want in a
wife It's been several days of epic pain, every day she wakes up Finally she's coming to that second stage of labour I
sit next to her, squeeze on her hand Put a
sponge up on her head and say, "Breathe if you can I
love you so much, baby, you're so strong I
could never do this but you so easily can" She said the
pain is insane like her abdomen's ruptured Like someone's got a
knife, and they're stabbing her stomach She's like "We have to do somethin'," the
nurse said, "It's natural Relax, it's just a
sign that it's actually coming" She's like "No, it's too much, it's too hard to get out" I'm saying any words I
think'll help at calming her down Doctor's like, "You're nearly through the
worst part of it now" Take a
look and see my little king is starting to crown They all telling her to push, and she's screaming She's saying that it hurts, I
tell her to keep breathing It's like 'push' is the
only word that they've said now Then I'm shocked by the
massive scream she let's out The
doctor's like "Yes, now the
head's out" And then I
watch as he quickly pulling the
rest out It's so amazing to see my son in the
flesh I
can't help but notice he hasn't taken a
breath, now They put a
little plastic thing in his mouth While the
doctor's two fingers are slightly pumping his chest down I
start panicking, something's gone wrong They push me to the
side, I
can barely see what's going on He's not breathing, they need to resuscitate him He's suffocating, I
see that it's something major, I
feel So helpless, I
wish I
could come and save him I
pray that my son'll make it, it's taking 'em fucking ages Everyone's in shock, I'm just listening in Holding my breath, wishing I
could give it to him, fuck At 20 minutes, now they're stopping They turn around, they say, "We've lost him" I'm in shock, I
can't talk I'm staring at the
ground, I
can't walk They hand him to us, can't believe the
size of him The
most beautiful thing I've ever seen but there's no life in him My wife's crying like, "Why aren't they reviving him?" I
said, "They tried for 20 minutes" she's like, "Try again" Now I'm feeling like I'm stuck in hell This is the
worst pain I've fucking felt I've been ten years clean, but now I'm drunk and on the
drugs as well I'm doing anything to numb myself, but nothing helps I
believed in God, for that I
feel dumb as hell Can someone please tell God to go and fuck himself I'm sorry, yo, it's hard to be faithful It's painful, heaven must be running out of angels He died from asphyxiation, no air in his lungs A
parent should never have to bury their son Especially one that's so precious it has barely begun That's one thing in life that should never be done I
prayed for a
son, and they blessed me with one My biggest gift, now his presence is up And I'm crying at the
thought, he won't ever feel a
hug Or the
tenderness of love that he'd be getting from his mum Sent him from above, but why take him It's like I'm being punished for the
negative I've done And it's killing me that Christmas time is barely in a
month So I'm doing what I
have to do to spend it with my son (No) Where did you go? Are you alone? How did you get there? I
need you at home Where did you go? Are you alone? How did you get there? I
need you at home I
need you at home