Unnecessary Pain
(专辑: All Love Lost - 2015)
I
still picture your affection I
still hear you like we're talking on the
phone I
Still feel it Like you're right there holding on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you giving up again? More unnecessary pain I
would ask how we ended up here, but I
drove And you allowed me Or maybe it's only me that remembers it Cause you're so easily told about me But not once while we were on that road did you doubt me Played your position, writing out our books I
noticed a
page missing, blame it on the
age difference I
see you in the
club, now days you're resistant You used to get excited just to never pay admission Looking for the
old you, wishing shit was normal Tried to mold you and you ended up with it on you Live around the
corner, yeah we ain't even formal So I'm asking God, why you alive and I
gotta mourn you Word, I
see you got a
little crew now A
bunch of ugly broke bitches I
know better than And I
ain't tryna say them hoes using you Well actually who would I
be kiddin'? Yes I
am I
see your life from far and something's off with it It's my fault and shit, I
shoulda never altered it I
sold a
dream when you couldn't have known the
cost of it Knew my love came with a
pain and I
still offered it Seeing your weight loss, knowing I'm the
cause of it If that ain't my signature, then shit, somebody forging it But you think I
ain't hurt, like it ain't no guilt in me Like it ain't killing me, I'm out here on a
killing spree A
sickness, I
ain't found a
way to nurse it yet Like I
ain't a
nervous wreck, like it's no reverse effect Internal bleeding and the
cuts run deep Every time I
leave one love, a
loved one leaves I
wish I
could take the
pain away, but only yours I'll be fine if I
remain this way See I
deserve whatever punishment I
get You could sentence me to years Of hearing my vic's voice even when nothing is there I
still picture your affection I
still hear you like we're talking on the
phone Still feel it Like you're right there holding on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you giving up again? More unnecessary pain I
done gone so long not giving a
fuck That it's no longer erratic, now it's a
normal habit Even when I
go my way, I
gotta have it Bury me with my sweats on and bitches in the
casket All the
waiters and words, I
let 'em loom on Every verse real enough to write it on my tombstone And so you know how real that paranoia be Even make me think my demise is avoiding me The
sick part is I
withstand that abuse Long as the
fans are amused, am I a
man or a
muse? Never sugarcoat it when I
hand it to the
youth Fell from all over the
world, and always landed in the
booth I
hold music in such a
high regard that To this day I
still feel like it's destiny And to these fans that I
once gave my life for I
gotta tell you that it's not much left in me Yeah, and not that it's growing old But years of bearing my soul is taking it's toll Took a
father from his son, but is it best that way? I'm so fucked up inside I
can't regret that Trey Hold my head up high at the
gates after my time's up They say you saved somebody's life by giving mine up Wouldn't be the
first time that I
went without Chased my true love so much that I
resent it now You can put this in the
scriptures like it's sacred To live with it, but hate it is to giveth then to take it Going through the
motions, it'll strip a
nigga naked I
guess it's for a
cause if all the
kids are gonna play it Trust me, I
ain't been the
same yet You'll stop and stare any time you see a
trainwreck And I'll take whatever punishment they give You can sentence me to years Of hearing that fan's voice even when nothing is there I
still picture your affection I
still hear you like we're talking on the
phone Still feel it Like you're right there holding on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you giving up again? More unnecessary pain Still learning to live with People coming in and out my life The
ones who matter show it over time That's why they always stay on my mind So I
live in reality Nobody else matters to me but you, you, you Why try to hide the
truth? I
still picture your affection I
still hear you like we're talking on the
phone Still feel it Like you're right there holding on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you giving up again? More unnecessary pain I'm tried of feeling this I
gotta live with this