If I Had A Heart

If I had a heart I'd probably stop taking you back
If I had a heart I'd probably start painting it black
I'm sorry that I'm so weak
If I had a heart I'd probably give you all of me

You crumble me. You kill me with your subtlety
Watch you wave goodbye like troubled seas
Is feeling hurt what "love you" means?
I just miss when you were still here
But you're with someone different this year
You found another way to stop tears
While I'm in my bedroom dying

If I had a heart I'd probably stop taking you back
If I had a heart I'd probably start painting it black
I'm sorry that I'm so weak
If I had a heart I'd probably give you all of me

You care for me. You were there when no one cared to be
But you took my heart to tear the seams
You were first in line to bury me
I just miss when we would hold hands
And we'd dig our toes into the cold sand
I told myself I'd never get this sad
But I'm in my bathroom dying

Why do you fuck with my heart?
I don't know, I don't know
We fogged up my fathers car long ago, long ago
And all these scars you've left on me
Are paper cuts to memories
I'll forget you eventually. I don't know, I don't know