IDK You Yet

I'm taking some vacation days
If I had any courage, I would stay away
Cuz my job still sucks and my friends still fake
And it takes all my energy to stay awake
Fuck depression, everybody want to teach you lessons
Like how you should be happy, how life is such a blessing
But how come it don't feel like that when you lying in bed and
All alone

How can you miss someone you've never met?
Cuz I need you now but I don't know you yet
But can you find me soon because I'm in my head
Now I need you now but I don't know you yet

And they say I'm special but I'm not though
Billions of my folk, right here on my iPhone
And I know if I had to choose between life or death
I probably would hesitate, I'd have to catch my breath for a second
Hey where'd you get your blessings?
Truth is where I shop at, I never see 'em selling
They think I'm [?], I'm not
I'm just looking for my spot on this big, blue and green dot

How can you miss someone you've never met?
Cuz I need you now but I don't know you yet
But can you find me soon because I'm in my head
Now I need you now but I don't know you yet

Yeah, and now I'm stressed I can't be left alone
Life's a bitch, I only say it cuz she led me on
The word choice, the world's the pearl, I'm collecting stones
I don't stand a chance unless my hands are out and taking loans, quid pro quo
I feel like a ponyboy
An outsider, I don't fit in with these phony boys
I know somebody that could hold me down, lift me up
Whenever I need it, it's out there
If I ever get out there

How can you miss someone you've never met?
Cuz I need you now but I don't know you yet
But can you find me soon because I'm in my head
Yeah I need you now but I don't know you yet