The Cleanse

I turn 26 this year, got a few more on my plate
Had to tell myself like 100 times that it's alright to take breaks
There was a point in time where I thought every sign that I read said I got what it takes
But, then I'd breakdown, like, fuck it, really? 'Cause I ain't sure nowadays
I hate face-timing just to catch up
'Cause we don't ever really catch up
And I'm at that age where everybody either hitched or they're headed towards a really bad breakup
And I've been on both sides of a breakup
And both sides want to skip to the makeup
I used to wonder why they call that shit makeup
And I think that it's 'cause when you wash it down the sink, you don't even recognize who you see
I'll never find a woman that can keep up in the sheets
I'll never find a person quite as confident as me, see
And I don't want to lie, I'm conflicted all the time
Because even though I'm not, I'm probably everything you think
And I don't want to die, but, it's fuck it if I do
And if I ever lie, least you know that's who I am
And every time I cry, I tend to only think of you (straight up, straight up)

And for the first two years of my deal
I realized that the shit wasn't real
And I would tell my friends I was doing pretty good and the views made it seem like facts
But, I was struggling to write more tracks
'Cause the money wasn't coming in fast
Shit, the money wasn't coming in at all
And still wonder if I'd be better off
Had I never reached out to the label in the first place
Before it even was a label in the first place
And said, fuck it, I'll do it by myself
'Cause every session I'm in there ain't no on else
Mix, write, produce, there ain't shit I don't do
I'm like Russ, 'cept good at what I do
I don't give a fuck, everything is just luck
Got way more gems than a fucking Brinks Truck
And I'm so Mayweather in the cut
Nothing but a goose, all of y'all can suck a duck
Quick with the memes, always talking quick bucks
But you never break bread, only ever butter up
Me I take a swing 'fore it's even batter up
And I don't give a "uh" all of y'all talking bases
But never take it back cause you already basic
And just like Apollo most of y'all need Lasik
And I need a break