Heart Attack
(专辑: We're All Alone In This Together - 2021)
Knife crimes is near a
record high With more than forty blade offenses every day in London At a
youth club in South London not far from where someone was stabbed less that twenty-four hours ago The
outline to direct link between violent crimes, social exclusion and austerity A
study by City Hall found that London has seen an increase in 71% in victims of serious youth violence since 2012 The
Mayor says this is linked to an increase in poverty And the
highest rates of violence take place in some of the
poorest boroughs Look, I
bet them boys think I'm panicking Check what my young Gs are carrying His blade same length as a
javelin I
don't know about B-ball or what's happening But know that it's fucked if he travelling and we see him I
can't lie, I
was depressed at phases I
was nineteen when the
team nearly left him faceless Hoping that we never left no traces You know when you're so damn tired in your house But you can't sleep 'cause you got pending cases I
used to love tempting fate, but now it's tempting faces For half my career I
was part of that My best friend got a
burner, and it's looking like an artifact Put it in your puffer or your Prada hat Like fuck panic, that's a
heart attack Yeah, it's like, life so fucked in the
time that we're in We're fighting the
world, and we're fighting within Somali dad ran away from a
war Now his son's in a
war, that's the
cycle we're in I
know niggas that didn't do time in a
bin That have never had freedom of mind, are you sick? 'Round here main way to provide for your kin Is in a
flick blade, little push bike and a
sim In London a
place where it's nicer to live Is only five minutes out from the
guys on the
strip Where man make yay' work, heard he's a
soldier I
know that nigga hasn't got balls like Grey Worm As I
grow older, change of perspective I
gotta stay loyal to my girl, that's the
trait she was blessed with Restaurants, raves with my bredrins Life's too short, so we gotta turn up Man talk on my ting for the
'Gram, it's intrusive I
never really thought 'bout taking a
life 'Til I
found out my ex-girl's dad is abusive I
felt "How could I
be man and not do shit?" I'm on the
way there now, and I
don't wanna lose it But fighting her battle's only hurting the
girl How can I
protect her from the
world When I
couldn't even protect her from myself? On my grandmother's grave, shit happens again I
put a
knife through a
family friend Most the
women that I
know had shit happen to them So innocent 'til guilty, ain't something I
have to respect I
think back to my youth and I
was so ungrateful How many of our parents had dreams they abandoned so they could put food on the
table? Intelligent, worthy and able, that's somebody's parent You know? And that affected the
way that I
see shit Night club toilet, you peed on the
seat 'Cause you don't know how it feels when your mom's gotta clean shit And her boss treats her like she don't even mean shit And she gotta wait for the
bus in the
rain and it's freezing And Mrs. said that you would never be shit And you don't wanna cry about dad, but you need him I
grew up so fucked, but I
didn't even deep it I'm numb to the
feeling of grieving And man getting birded African moms on the
floor, just screaming It's mad cah I
try so hard Death's got to be easy, 'cah life's so hard I
was twelve wishing that I
was a
white man, hard Cah if I
was then they probably wouldn't life mans darg I
was dead broke, fam, I
couldn't swipe mans card And time might pass, but I
still gotta stay with it It wasn't his beef, but I
see him try claiming it That's why he caught a
bullet with another man's name on it Now he can't do leg day or put strain on it Every time you hear me freestyle, I
put pain in it I
used to wonder "Does God have favorites?" Touch me, it's dangerous, I
wouldn't play with it 'Cause you can go sleep, and have a
different type of wake for it I
miss my dawgs, unstable You violate Chris? Then rah, turn Chris Benoit Have him hit from far, nah Fill 'em up with bricks and glass, nah My young Gs will grip, then blast Have you tried in the
street? Fuck finding my feet I
could ride, but it's better when I'm ridin a
beat My emotions are peak, it ain't a
sign of defeat or the
weak I
would've **** you, then cried in my sleep Dropped just two racks and told them "Buy the
machine" I'm LeBron in Miami, I
provide for the
heat God strike me if I'm lying, I
ain't crying in this beef Unless the
tears coming tatted on the
side of my cheek I
provide for my peeps, the
Lamb' white in the
seats So I'm literally a
wolf disguised in a
sheep You have five figure dreams, I
have five figure sleep Five hours more than enough time that I
need Man want a
fair fight, but I
ain't on it when I
see him Fuck honour, this revolver is onomatopoeic Let it "Stut-tut-tut-tut-tut-tut-ter" when you see him Free Scalez, Free C
and free my niggas 'til I
see 'em I
wouldn't wanna be him My old Gs roaming, I
don't need a
coliseum You see it? So I'm playing it good, let hood politics stay in the
hood Fuck the
internet, you see this new generation The
Insta beef and I
ain't into speaking When I
duck down I
had him running in a
lift like he missed a
meeting There's no good reason to risk your freedom The
yutes dem snitch and bitches sneaking She don't wanna talk 'bout friendships She just wanna deal with the
pipe like I'm fixing leaking And sleep with a
legend like Chrissy Teigen Where I'm from the
word "Life" has a
different meaning Man smile in your face, but them niggas scheming Try involve me in a
flakey dealing Sistine Chapel, I'ma paint the
ceiling I
been violated and I
hate the
feeling That's why nowadays man hates the
preaching We smile in the
visit, 'cause we ain't defeated The
Supreme Court's where my mates appealing I
can't breed that girl, that's torture South London, it's just slags on the
corner And influencers tryna bag them a
baller She a
gold-digger, I
can tell from her aura Her socials say princess, she a
pauper When it's time for it, need more for my daughter Call me a
talker, but man are getting lined like lambs in the
slaughter It's life-threatening and I
can tell from the
borer Cut through a
nigga like a
knife though flora Feds got the
guys on a
case and they stalk us It's conspiracy like tinfoil hats and a
new world order Touch me, better have a
life insurer Blood thirsty, I
got sharks in the
water And trust me, I
know a
killer whale, no orca Have you ever seen a
nightmare brought to life? Where I'm from, you get cheffed on a
normal night Men talk on my name, but it's porkie pies I
really put it in a
prick like a
porcupine Little bro wanna save for a
.45 Go board a
flight, there's more to life Yutes on the
M6 all the
time We don't need TFL for a
northern line All the
best politicians been taught to lie Where do they buy cocaine when they're snorting white? Are their dealers safe or on the
borderline? It's ironic, 'cause we don't where to draw the
line Man see Blue Story, they're mortified Man see Scarface and it's glorified 'Cause when you're black, everything gets scrutinized That's why they call it "Urban", it gets euphemized South London, man are getting euthanized I
see a
yutes demise, I
wasn't too surprise He got soaked but his right hand scuba dived Don't die by a
sword that you used to shine You can drown for your king, you don't know about Ophelia Cah we got iron, I
don't know about anaemia I
took the
hard road, we don't know 'bout the
easier One bag of whores and drug paraphernalia When ends got sticky, had a
flicky with Emelia, I
mean Olivia This ain't Libya, this ain't Syria You act sillier, we let it seep in your skin like Nivea Who wants to be a
millionaire? I
won it Never done a
gameshow or trivia I
done Wandsworth, Erlestoke visitor I
done Springhill, Grendon, Swinfen, Whitemoor, Swaleside, Brixton visitor I
done M-way trips, done shit that I
wished I
never did Becah I
could have been a
prisoner Is this the
shit that appeals to the
listeners? Road ain't no amazing life The
ends full of snakes and jails, just a
waste of time I
tell my young Gs "Take your time" Fuck Jazz, you can really see a
major nine Yo, I'm so ashamed of how I
used to get figures Man sell you a
dream like the
road tings lit And then they leave out the
parts where you're burying your niggas Or in jail, wondering who's putting dick in your Mrs I'm so fucking determined I
was in intensive care when I
was born, mommy fell down the
stairs Whether I
was gonna live or not was something uncertain I
used the
word "Fell", with the
commas inverted You see, growing up I
had it far from perfect But nobody did, so I'm a
normal person I
gotta be grateful, we all have demons and all see angels Or maybe it's me A
black yutes more than a
face on a
screen A
number on a
laptop or name on a
sheet We got stories to tell and got places to be From my heart, that's the
making of me I
was really about to lose I
sat on my hands I
struggled 'cause I
didn't want to suffer again I
just wanted, didn't wanna make my son upset I
went to [?] I
tried so much, we have no strength I
was in detention counsel for months, I
didn't give up I
was not even twenty when I
left Africa I
was determined to survive I
was determined to survive I
didn't have anybody, nobody was ready to help me You was six weeks old, this is when we left from Africa I
was on the
streets for three years Nobody let me eat, nobody in this nation I
couldn't pay my rent, getting deported I
didn't give up, I
carried on everywhere