It's Not The Same As It Felt Before

We're drinking coffee
And brushing shoulders
With the gate keepers of our future
I'm begging god to please let this one finally stay

I hope I'm not playing
Into somebody's nonsense
I need to say this
I can't play favorites
Everyone I love
Wants for me to run away

There's only so much space
Now displaced from the momentum I had
Through a slippery slope down
(I hope I can handle this change)
Tunnel vision led to blinding myself
From finding this help to be less than what I hoped for
Through this static sound
(I hope I can handle this change)
There's no such thing as a private life anymore
Bedroom floor has become an alter to a new tomorrow
(I hope I can handle this change)
When I only envision
When my eyes are closed tightly
It's slightly irritating
No I can't take another harsh blow
Until I understand this time is borrowed
Time is borrowed

I felt so completed
But was left defeated
It's not the same as it felt before
I broke with the seasons
And changed what I needed
It's not the same as it felt before

I felt so completed
But was left defeated
It's not the same as it felt before
I broke with the seasons
And changed what I needed
It's not the same as it felt before

Hope is what happens when your mind
Is too distracted to realize the fleeting feelings
Might be real
Just because something is tangible
Doesn't mean it will handle well
We can still easily steer this right off a hill
I'll buy into your sense of freedom
If you promise to believe them
When my demons tell you that I could never change
That lashing out in my own purpose
I know when it'll be worth it
To finally accept that I might be OK
I'll be OK