Finding Better Places

This is the time, this is the moment we shine, the moment we climb
There's moments in life where we follow, we fly but I'm still trying to find that sky
Looking for a reason to listen to me
Let me just give you some pieces of me
Let me just take out my heart that maybe you'll see that I'm not Superman that I really do bleed
Man I'll give you that thing that repeats in your car
But I'll give you that music to heal every scar
Look to the sky and I pray to the stars, find out that myself I've been trapped in the dark
And I know what it is that I'm here to do
Is this really the person I'm supposed to be?
Trying to give you all my story but I can never find the words cause I don't know me
I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm mad and it's all because of this past
When every kid in your school believes you can do it but really thinks that you're trash
When you got friends that say, “we'll always be there”... I look around but where you at?
It's like you all got up and left; onto the next
What was my chance to pack?!
Putting in effort but I should've known better but being alone is just nothing but pressure
Through my endeavors I'm piecing this letter to every kid trying to hold it together
This life is just long, and I'm just from the street
Even the strongest of man will fall weak
But with all the pain and the hurt, the tears on your shirt
That's what finding happiness means
And now you probably think I got this all down
But I don't even know what I'm doing right now
When you're giving your best till your last breath
There's a time where you just want to drown
Picked up myself from the cold hard ground
Friends don't believe what I'm doing right now
Teachers telling me to pull all this right down
Got this whole time to turn this whole life around
And why follow all the steps when I can make my own trail?
Said the ship was sink now lets see me sail
Hope'n that my momma just a fraction of a tail
I've been giving you my heart every time it's been impaled
I ain't out callin names but you know who you are
Trying to shoot me down but I rose to the stars
No I'm not there but I know I'm not far
In the coldest of times you can't feel anymore
Trying to find happiness, I found it in you
Gave you it all and you break me in two
Broke and confused like I got nothing to lose
I don't choose to feel for someone, I just do
I don't choose to get over it, I get through
Built myself up and that was through you
Gave you more than my all
On my knees and I'ma call
But still picked up your calls
Though to me, you don't mean nothing at all

I don't mean you mean nothing at all

So many things that I will never get out of my head I could write an endless letter
Tired of writing, you tore me apart when a wolf who put me together
See I don't know what I would write, what I could say, none of this ever comes easily
I could write you the cheesiest lines but never come close to what you really mean to me
What do you see in me?
I could feel that I'm close but I'm lost on where to go, I'm just scared what it's gon' be like
But however it goes as you are holding me close I can tell what the future feels like
Like that day on that bridge, where we laughed and we kissed, I still see the moments still burning inside
Even with the pain and the bliss when the stress really hits you are the compass defining my mind
Feels like I'm climbing, I'm climbing
I look at my parents their dreams are so hallow
Mom could have had her liquor, we bicker she taught me straight from the bottle
She's better, and healthy and sleeping
Told to me to chase all the things that I'm dreaming
Give her the house she wants, all the money she needs
I'ma grow her the Garden of Eden
Running out of time, I've got nothing to waste
My own producer started to lose faith
Now my close friends are turning two faced, to face with two ways that go broke or get paid
Sitting at work, take a look at yourself
Your life is scheduled by somebody else
Your dreams and views are not something that you choose
But you swallow your two's because a check really helps
Living my life that will never be me
Look out your windows and maybe you'll see
The things that you dream of, the things that you can do, the things that you crave for, the things you could be
So find what you love and don't ever desert it
You find what you're worth from the purpose inside
Living in a time with these kids are uncertain
It's eat or be eaten, the hungry survive
Losing my patience with dollars in times
I'm unwinding my heart with these lines that I write
If you're losing your mind, you can jump into mine
Let me open your eyes to a world that is blind
This is a mistake that I'm glad that I've made it
Step into my shoes or don't judge where I've been
Just look into my eyes and I'll tell you I'll make it
The way to your dream is the life within