In California
(专辑: Have One On Me - 2010)
My heart became a
drunken runt On the
day I
sunk in this shunt To tap me clean of all the
wonder And the
sorrow I
have seen since I
left my home My home on the
old Milk Lake Where the
darkness does fall so fast, it feels like some kind of mistake Just like they told you it would Just like the
Tulgey Wood When I
came into my land I
did not understand Neither dry rot or the
burn pile Or the
bark-beetle or the
dry well Or the
black bear But there is another who is a
little older When I
broke my bone, he carried me up from the
riverside To spend my life in spitting distance of the
love that I
have known I
must stay here, in an endless eventide And if you come and see me, you will upset the
order You cannot come and see me, for I
set myself apart But when you come and see me in California You cross the
border of my heart Well, I
have sown untidy furrows across my soul, but I
am still a
coward Content to see my garden grow so sweet and full of someone else's flowers Sometimes, I
can almost feel the
power Sometimes I
am so in love with you Like a
little clock that trembles on the
edge of the
hour Only ever calling out, "Cuckoo" When I
called you, you little one In a
bad way, did you love me? Do you spite me? Time will tell if I
can be well And rise to meet you rightly While moving across my land Brandishing themselves like a
burning branch Advance the
tallow-colored walleyed deer Quiet as gondoliers While I
wait all night, for you in California Watching the
fox pick off my goldfish from their sorry golden state And I
am no longer afraid of anything Save the
life that here awaits I
don't belong to anyone, my heart is heavy as an oil drum And I
don't want to be alone, my heart is yellow as an ear of corn And I
have torn my soul apart from pulling artlessly with fool commands Some nights, I
just never go to sleep at all and I
stand Shaking in my doorway like a
sentinel, all alone Bracing like the
bow upon a
ship and fully abandoning Any thought of anywhere but home, my home Sometimes I
can almost feel the
power And I
do love you Is it only timing that has made it such a
dark hour? Only ever chiming out, "Cuckoo"? My heart, I
wear you down, I
know Gotta think straight, keep a
clean plate Keep from wearing down If I
lose my head, just where am I
going to lay it? For it has half-ruined me to be hanging around Here, among the
daphne blooming out of the
big brown I
am native to it, but I'm overgrown I
have choked my roots on the
earth, as rich as roe Here, down in California