Back To The Fire

(专辑： JT XX - 2022)

The Winter is killer, causing my blood to run cold
Just like the icicles I can feel crystallize in my soul
I find the numbness a comfort because it's all that I know
If one description could fit me, it'd be abominable
When I lost my fire, the fever to follow was awfully fierce
Freezing my arctic heart in an armored locker, not even arson could pierce
I got a disease, operating like a machine, but forgot for what was I geared?
I became a robot when the cold dropped Sub-Zero, arteries shot full of serum, as I'm
Tossed into the ring, not one applaud or a cheer
Probably cause no audience wanted to watch me faced off with a mirror
I had to weaponize Edward Hyde whenever my Doctor Jekyll would not volunteer
Putting me on both sides of the conflict, either way, all of us profit tears
Not every hero keeps so clean-cut, no cap I'm better off with a beard
Stark is the contrast in between us, here comes a trigger warning cover your ears
Looking like a storm on the forecast, not sure that's really what I wanted to hear
With a Civil War on my doorstep, it's a little late for any Paul to Revere, hollering
Winter isn't coming, Winter is already here
The weather from which I've been running is nigh, the sky no longer so clear
My past caught up with me, knocked me off of the wagon onto my rear
How can I trust the function of my compass when it was corrupted with fear?
What have I lost? Nothing but years, what did it cost? All that was dear
Which I thought would've thawed my conscience, it did not it just disappeared
Like a wolf running from his hunger, when another more cunning, hunter is near
Cause a bark and a bite will not win a fight if you're not holding onto a spear

Which one am I becomin'?
I caught the cold, because

The Winter's been so long, I got no spark left in my lighter
Now I feel nothing, but I need something to guide me back to the fire
Cause if a man can't change his stars, he can, damn sure, change his stripes
When nightfall paints the world all black and white, bring the fire back to life

Sleeper agent reawaken when his peaceful dream is shaken
Free of reason, fleeting patience, seething anger feeding hatred
Seeking to find the wrong in the right, "sweeping the leg is part of the fight"
I've become a hostage of the monster inside me, I'm just along for the ride
Thought I was dead? Forgotten behind? Fallen, left in the gutter to die?
Dropped my guard and I got disarmed, southpaw now, but I'll knock out your lights
Take off my face, put on a disguise, I don't wear capes, I'm wanted for crimes
You do this all day? I run it all night, gone is the Winter, but not in my mind
Split in half, which half is talking? I could be set off any second watch it
Shatter your defenses, shed that shield you brought, or get sent back home on it
Matters not if I happen to want it, I'm on this path and I have to walk it
Navigating while divided pilots fight to drive my mental cockpit
It's an unholy road ahead, but I'm already damned, I've broken bread
With both of the devils on my shoulders growing heavy with the sins I won't confess
So sever regret it's said and done, but remember to dread, what's yet to come
Forever the steps I take will set the pace that my amends are meant to run
Better protect your wings, I was left with none, when I flew too high, and they met the sun
Fell from Cloud Nine into Hell's Ninth Circle, a permanent resident I've become
Another one of them fallen angels, all of our halos broken
We share despair, spare your prayers, god ain't saving no one
The soulless soldier has only been shown the coldest shoulders
I'll go unthanked for my service, I'm taking no more orders
Had enough of playing dead, now rover's sick of rolling over
Still some tricks to be taught, even if the god is older

The Winter's been so long, I got no spark left in my lighter
Now I feel nothing, but I need something to guide me back to the fire
Cause if a man can't change his stars, he can, damn sure, change his stripes
When nightfall paints the world all black and white, bring the fire back to life

Two wolves are battling inside us all
So who will answer when the wild calls?
The one you feed won't need a fire while
The one denied is hungrier, becoming a survivor
Crying fuck it all wanna see my dirty laundry aired out?
Nothing left to hide, might as well let my hair down
The match is set, yet there's nothing to strike
I guess the past is all I got left to light

The Winter's been so long, I got no spark left in my lighter
Now I feel nothing, but I need something to guide me back to the fire
Cause if a man can't change his stars, he can, damn sure, change his stripes
When nightfall paints the world all black and white, bring the fire back to life