Speechless

(专辑： Long Time Coming - 2016)

If I'm so wrong, should I write?
Wanting more of this life
I've looked in mirrors to find myself, but I'm still searching for light
Temporary happiness is what I found that I'm in
But screw that life, I'll break that normal way they told me to live
They told me, "Get a degree," I told 'em, "Give me a chance"
Yeah, they were laughing at my dreams but that's a part of my plan
'Cause first they hate you, then they love you-now I'm all in demand
I owe it to all of my critics, everything that I am
Yeah, my dream is simple-be a voice to the unheard
And change the game with every lyric wrote and every word
In an industry-looking more like politics
Used to hearing teachers say I was just a problem kid
The kid with ADD that somehow made it by
Used to never speak my mind, now I let my lyrics fly
Yeah, I'm aiming for the top 'cause they said I wouldn't reach it
I was raised inside that pulpit, so of course they yelling, "Preach it"
I was a pastor's kid that hated the label I had
Every single person I met compared me to Dad
People always tried to find the worst in me
Life under the magnifying glass wasn't meant for me, 'cause I have made some mistakes
But know that I did
And I've been rethinking life and everything that I lived
There's more to life than a nine to five
I get married then I die
I've got too much potential to be content with getting by
While you worried 'bout a social life, I just got my focus right Locked inside my room, dreams I had at 14 came to life
Always wanted this, I'm craving for this feeling
Of being something that they want, someone that's appealing
I hate the mirror, it reminds me everything I'm not
They say I've got it all, but what's it all if I am lost?

I'ma open up, let me paint a picture
If I had a thousand words, I promise I could leave you speechless, yeah
This is all that I have
This is all that I want
This is all that I have
This is all that I want, yeah
I told you all, I told you all
I'd take it over now, you know that we are
I told you all, I told you all
I'd take it over now, you know that we are

I'm lying if I said opinions never get to me
Heart and soul in this and everything left in between
I'm just a different breed, a living breathing symphony
'Cause I got all this music in my chest, so I just let it leak
I'm gaining confidence and working harder than my peers
While they drown in student debt, I'll just embrace my fears
I won't fall into the system, I got things to do
I know I was never perfect but that is the same for you
I've been depressed and I want you to know
My faith has faded, lately, I've just been feeling alone
So pray for me, still I'm patiently waiting for the day
That the world will finally listen and everyone knows my name
Yeah, I've been in that crowd-been that kid with a dream
I see these kids from the stage looking right up to me
I told 'em, "Look what happened"
I said I would turn my vision into hype
Buzzing now, I could kill the game and bring it back to life
I know I was put on Earth for a reason
I don't got it figured out, but I still know I'm believing
I got problems, I got issues, I got skeletons in closets
I've been tryna hide for years right behind a broken promise, yeah
Losing trust for some friends who say they want the best
But when I turn my back, they try to end all my success
I made a label by myself, built a fanbase by myself
When they ask if I need help, I'll tell 'em I don't need it
I've had my mind set on this since I was seventeen
Rep the Noise Unheard, now everybody heard of me
Looking back, I'm thanking God for my critics
One's doubting me today will want the life that I'm living
Everybody's got a story, I've just got the guts to share it now
Rising to the top and I hope I'm never coming down

I'ma open up, let me paint a picture
If I had a thousand words, I promise I could leave you speechless, yeah
(I could leave you speechless, yeah, yeah)
(I could leave you speechless, yeah, yeah)
(I could leave you speechless, yeah, yeah)