Best Intentions
(专辑: Everything Speaks In Its Own Way - 2012)
We are a
product of our times Our legacy's of messiness of misdirected energies and self-obsessive tendencies But I'll waste no more time in wanting that can never be Those friendships numb to nothing now I
hope that you remember me In kindness or at least in empathy, like I
remember you I
know that I
am who I
am for having been a
friend to you I
know now firsthand that regretting love will empty you Of all that makes you loving and of all that lovers pay attention to I've been here before, entangled, trying not to mention you When all my blood and guts are filled to bursting with the
stench of you See I
lose me in loving and I
do things I
never meant to do All my weakness is my weakness in an attempt to strengthen you Last night just like all other nights, I
fell asleep and dreamt of you But 'you' is not one person, not one version of a
person Or a
device enlisted in these rhymes to help me vent some raw emotion, no 'You' is all the
yous I
ever loved in falsity All the
yous I
ever fell for in the
darkness of this false city All the
yous who had my truth and in return were false to me All the
yous I
had to lose so I
could make the
most of me All the
yous whose secrets I
still keep who are like ghosts to me Haunting me, every time I
let someone get close to me All the
yous I
lie beside, whose cries seem like such boast to me Who naked came and naked left and squandered all my hopes in me Resuscitate the
vilest side and stifle all the
growth in me You made me feel immortal but in secret made a
joke of me Well, whatever's come to pass I
hope that you, like me, are sure That the
love was always real and the
intention always pure And whatever people tell you, they can't ever love you more It's just I
wish I'd known to love you right before and that's the
score And whatever's come to pass I
hope that you, like me, are sure That the
love was always real and the
intention always pure And whatever people tell me; they can't ever love me more Still, I
wish I'd known to love you right before But every storm that's ever blown, blows in me The
world pitches and heaves and pulls my tides I
wear the
lonely strength that sorrow brings me but I
woke this morning old and I
realised My best friends don't know the
weight of my contrition or the
flames that make a
furnace of my throat The
relentless burning thrust of my ambition or the
trust I
bore and lost now so remote A
tribe of enemies rise up against me I'm stare at them for faces but find masks Eyes that once looked sweetly gaze back empty and I
cannot do the
things of me they ask, stop asking! I
must answer to my own looming potential It rears its fearsome head and it screams my name These callous bleeding fingers grip that pencil And I
scrawl on scraps of paper: "I'm to blame, I'm to blame" I
scrawl on scraps of paper: "I'm to blame" I
know because you told me I'm to blame And all that was, that is, all that will be, is heavy like the
tears you waste on me So don't fall in love with me cause I
will write about it When it's come to nothing and you begin to doubt it ever happened, I
will mull it over; churn it out I'll bring the
ocean to the
drought You'll tell me it's unhealthy and hurt me when you try to help me Then I
will tell you that "I'm sorry" when a
time for sorry is long deceased I
will think of you when all the
city longs for sleep I'll keep them up, screaming out the
secrets I
don't want to keep That's when I'll call you up in tears knowing you don't want to speak and say Whatever's come to pass I
hope that you like me are sure That the
love was always real And the
intention always pure Whatever people tell you They'll can't everlove you more I
really wish I'd known to love you right before