I Trap You
(专辑: The Book Of Traps And Lessons - 2019)
Love is a
self-made thing I
am free I
stare at the
air and I
see patterns And your name is a
song in my chest The
taste is metallic How many billions walk this planet? I
feel them, I
feel them You show me my mass Love is an endless sky An endless cliché that imagines itself to be deep revelation An open face, n
open palm, n
open plain All open The
more that we close it the
less that we know it And just 'cause I
know it Don't mean I
know how to show it They're taking everything from us and telling us nothing is ours But here we are, dancing You make me a
microscope You make me a
map I
called it "love," I
should have called it "trap" "I trap you," I
should have said tenderly At the
end of a
long day While we kept each other desperately stagnant "I trap you so much" Yes, I
want you to be happy, but don't threaten my happiness Can't you see I'm walking this threadbare tightrope? Made out of dental floss stitched together with strands of tobacco and dog hair And it stretches between two precious fantasies My fantasy of me and my fantasy of you And beneath, in raging red chopped razor teeth states of fury Are all my insecurities And all the
little lies I
like to tell myself And every other reason that I
can't see the
truth "I trap you so much!" I
should have whispered in your ear as we fell asleep Bodies unbound, sheets soaked, hearts hammering If I
see it clear, will it stay clear? Will it be clear when you're here? I
don't want fear, I
don't want greed I
want freedom, I
want to be free I
want you to be free, I
want to nourish I
don't want to feed like some ravenous mouth With no guts, only greed, endless appetite Need, need, need You can't free me, I
free me, I
breathe If I
am in pieces, is it easier to see? I
think I
am whole now I
think I
am more whole But I
still check my phone 17 times a
minute To see if you called and I
missed it Trap Love is a
self-made thing Love is a
self-made trap