Sickness

This is
A sickness
Had my chance I missed it
My life I didn't ask for it
I don't know how to handle it
So I'll be dead my tomorrow
Think I'm joking?
I don't
Why is it so hard?
Remind me how did this start?

I can't believe that you fucked him
My self esteem was at nothing
Ima keep it a g, I'm not fronting
But I get to the check, so like fuck it?
And all of your friends they, keep fronting
Panicking in public
Sipping on a potion
Nodding to the sun
But down here it's so cold though
No one will help you if you claim you're so cutthroat

I'll ride by myself
With a 45 by my side
I'll do
What the fuck is already done

This is
A sickness
Had my chance I missed it
My life I didn't ask for it
I don't know how to handle it
So I'll be dead my tomorrow
Think I'm joking?
I don't
Why is it so hard
Remind me how did this start?