Cry While We're Laughing

(专辑： Spring Never Comes - 2019)

First date 2am and again I'm
Wondering if this is even real? What is this
She's, super cool and she's into all this
Weird shit that I love, that no one ever is but
I can tell she's a sad one
But she the kind of girl that wouldn't cry to Dad if she had one
Grew up rough on some tough love, hits 18
And there really ain't nobody else to speak of
And now she's rolling with a reject
And I know my time's short but she doesn't want to leave yet
Roll it up, hit the porch and of course
When the smoke clears out, all we really have are regrets
All we really had were secrets
And I don't know about the hole in my defense
It's all good let's dispense with the pretense
You don't gotta say it girl, I know that you're leaving

'Cause I don't believe it when
You say that you're happy
How could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day we'll learn
To cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
All the time

First things first, I'm the worst and you know that
Just your birthday curse, that's a throwback
Yeah, I ruin everything and you know that
I'm the saddest motherfucker on this earth like I'm Bojack
Black lungs, white sky, oh why can't
I just be free without a Vyvanse?
When I ask for love I get silence
As you go and hide behind eyelids
Just go to sleep, I'll be right back
Don't you know that you're all I have
"Just breathe" she says, it's not that bad
You know I hate when you talk like that
Let me break and I'll be done
I know you hate what I've become
With everything that I've been through
I just can't be what you want me to

'Cause I don't believe it when
You say that you're happy
How could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day we'll learn
To cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
All the time

Why are you high all the time?
Why are you high all the time?

Ayy yeah, turns out I'm a problem, unsolvable
Nausea from the toxins, the bad son prodigal
Now I'm reaching for top it's improbable
The way I got here turning thoughts into audibles
Turning art into an audience
Against my haters judgement and against my own common sense
But now I'm getting played in all the provinces
'Cause every time I hop up on the beat I fucking body it

'Cause I don't believe it
When you say that you're happy
How could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day
We'll learn to cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
High all the time
'Cause I don't believe it when
You say that you're happy
How could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day we'll learn
To cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
Why are you high all the time?