Happier
(专辑: If You Don't Like The Story Write Your Own - 2022)
Hold the
pain, keep it silent Hold the
pain, keep it silent No, my time only running out 'Bout the
way that I'm smiling Can nobody see I'm down? Do my best to be okay But that's [?] my feelin's allow These thoughts slip from me always All I
think is how Now nothing feels the
same No, nothing feels the
same Searching for where I
belong I
just wanna be happier Now, nothing feels the
same No, nothing feels the
same Learning from where I
went wrong I
just wanna be happier (Yeah), yeah The
more I
learn, the
more I
realize how much I
have left to learn Remember back when seven fifty an hour was all I
earned And Mom was working overtime, just tryna make things work So every bill that came in the
mail came with concern I
thought maybe a
degree could change some things for her and me Was even honored by the
dean, that didn't matter at all I
bought the
lie they sold to me at the
expense of my own dreams Said they had everything I
need, just need to pay for it all Oh, fuck that, they used to tell me, "Fuck rap, you need to take a
step back Look in the
mirror, Mark, and look at yourself" They almost had me thinking I
should put my dreams on the
shelf They don't believe in me just like they don't believe in themselves I
took that chip and then I
wore it proudly Along the
way I
became fixated on those who doubt me Somehow lost sight of all the
blessings that were all around me I
let comparison and pressure almost fucking drown me Was lost until I
found me I
treated the
world like it owed me My self-worth came from comments from people that didn't know me Feeling lonely, feeling like I
let everybody else down Barely recognizing anyone now, and all I
think is All I
think is how Now nothing feels the
same No, nothing feels the
same Searching for where I
belong I
just wanna be happier Now, nothing feels the
same No, nothing feels the
same Learning from where I
went wrong I
just wanna be happier I
wanna partake in this rat race, don't have a
lot but have faith And how can I
create when my mind is in such a
bad place? I
finally made some money, but more issues is what that made Remember thinking that I'll be happy once I
reach that place But not so much, I
did it, I
felt the
rush But on the
way, I
left some people and things I
love in the
dust That's when I
finally realized how now enough is never enough I
wear the
smile on my face and nobody has called my bluff I'm honest, I
may have added some commas But what's naïve to think that money could alleviate problems I
let the
numbers become all the
validation I
seek Now I
know showing my emotions doesn't mean that I'm weak Despite what others may think And maybe all along happiness was a
choice And I
listened to their opinions instead of my inner voice The
old me just really wanted the
world to love and respect me Now I'm sick of living life for everybody except me So don't text me, all I
want is to fucking live in the
moment Should appreciate the
journey a
little more and I
know it Kept around the
ones I
trust and cut everybody else out Barely recognizing anyone now, and all I
think is All I
think is how Now nothing feels the
same No, nothing feels the
same Searching for where I
belong I
just wanna be happier Now, nothing feels the
same No, nothing feels the
same Learning from where I
went wrong I
just wanna be happier Searching for where I
belong I
just wanna be happier now (I just wanna—)