Middle Of Nowhere

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
I'm living in the middle of nowhere
And nobody knows

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care
In a house made of glass and they're throwing me stones

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care

Look I'm sorry I've been hard to reach
But these wounds are still fresh and all my scars are deep
And that's the reason it's impossible to fall asleep
'Cuz all these voices in my head still talk to me

And honestly I'm tryna find a way to relax
But every time I see some light it wants to fade in the black
I know a lot of this is based on the way I react
But I guess it's way too late for me to take it all back

And so I...

Just keep on tryna change the narrative
Searching for serotonin, I'm an addict, it's embarrassing
All my friends keep on tryna act like they're my therapists
It's funny 'cuz the fight the same battle, don't be arrogant

I'm in this mental prison and I'm so scared
I'm out here living in the middle of nowhere
And it's cold here

The population is zero
'Cuz no one goes there
So don't pretend that you give a fuck, if you don't care

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care
And nobody knows

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care
In a house made of glass and they're throwing me stones

I can't call you 'cuz there's no reception
And I don't think I'd go and text you if my phone connected
'Cuz what's the point of that anyways if I'm so neglected
A lot of people I thought love me, they don't respect me

My thoughts racing as the time passes
I'm blatant risking it all, thinking should I chance it
The hole I got in my heart is growing so gigantic
It's sinking deeper in my stomach than the Titanic

My brain's trying to kill me, I'm anxiety ridden
Do I move the fuck on or just waste time tryna fix it?
All I got's this instrumental and bassline when I'm drinking
A temporary high I'm willing to chase, well, why not sink in?

Let this pattern just repeat itself
And I've got too much pride to say "I need your help"
I'm in the middle of nowhere and I'm freaking out
I guess I'll shut off all the lights and try to sleep for now

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care
And nobody knows

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care
In a house made of glass and they're throwing me stones

I'm living in the middle of nowhere
I don't know where to go
What happens to a World when there's no care
And nobody knows